Change.

Time ; the biggest factor that changes so much things.
Someone that was once so close to you now became a stranger once again.

I am someone who can be filled with so many insecurities at times. I hate changes.
It's my nature to make a habit to maintain a distance with ppl first cos I'm afraid of getting hurt after so many times. Yet, sadly this isn't something you can get used to it & be numb to.
It's not a good thing at all. It feels really bad and insecure.
When I fully put my heart and soul into something or even trust & love for someone,
it's when I rlly finally begin to trust them.

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But it always seem like losing people are part & parcel of our lives.
No matter how much effort we put to make some people stay,
some people are not meant to be in our lives afterall.
I guess people who are worth it would try to make an effort to stay in our lives no matter how hard it is.

After so much, it makes me even more insecure and makes me feel that it's even more difficult to trust people, or rather investing time, effort too much, too easily.
It's really sad when you really care so much for someone, & at the end of the day, they prolly never ever appreciated all that was done and even our existence was nothing at all.
& the saddest thing is there is nothing else that we can do.
We can't talk sense into someone who isn't even appreciative of your existence.
Walking away, pretending that you don't care at all is the prolly the only solution, the toughest way out, the last resort we want to. Yet there ain't other choices left.

What we can hope is that perhaps one day down the road, they'll realise how much you've done for them.
Though it may be too late, at least all else isn't in vain.


"& why do people have to only wait till when things are gone, will they start to be more appreciative of stuff. "