feeling downnn, so many troubles are haunting me.

i need to find myself backkk :(

& pick myself up.

was told to open my email last night, yc wrote & sang me a song.
wl upload it in my next post!^^


well, indeed it's kinda touching and sweet <3
thanks for always being by my side, he's always there caring for me even till now, close to a year than we broke up alrdy.
in fact we seldom meet up now or not at all, perhaps once or twice a month.
he's really a good & nice guy, so i would hope that he'll find a nice girl too.
i would say that it's impossible for us to get back tgt.

to yc:
i really appreciate all the stuff you have been doing for me, being a very good friend even after we broke up.
but i have alrdy given you many many chances when we were tgt for that close to 2 years.
although you have changed your temper a lot nowww, but things aren't the same anymore.
you jolly well should know the humiliation n pride i have swallowed when i was with you.
tolerated all your mood swings & today, you are a new, better & changed person.
really happy for you actually.
even though there were happy times and you tried to give me all that i wanted, everything else but emotionally.
your next gf wl have the benefits of having a good-tempered you! ((;


however, sometimes when it's gone, it's gone.
just like my r/s with you.
i would say the appearance of D affected us a lot.
i was very happy with him.
indeed i kept saying break up to D when me & D were tgt.
cos the period when you wanted to woo me back, i was with D.
& everytime you appeared at my hse, i felt irritated & guilty like i was doing smth behind D's back.
in fact i was quite devoted to D.
at that time when i broke up with D, i did hate you for appearing and ruining my r/s with D.


& if you ask me, do i still miss & love him, i do =/
but now, everything's over, i dont wanna talk about it anymore.


r/s problem have been bringing so much troubles for me,
plus i fell out with a nice friend of mine.
knew him since secondary school.
coincidentally he broke up with his gf & i also broke up with D.
he stays just opposite me, across the bridge.
we have been meeting up at night, msging to help each other get over quickly.


however, after he said that he likes me & i rejected him several times, we are no longer in contact anymore.
well, at least it's a blessing in disguise to me.
it just shows that perhaps all along, he just had a motive of being sucha close friend with me.
it's really sad. :(


bothered by so many things plus jobs, my music & the upcoming attachment @club 21,
i'm just too tired.
i just wanna carry on with my life happily.
& nt let r/s affect me for now.